Monday, October 28, 2013

There Goes My Hero

Ok so Nigel's not really my hero but he is kinda one of them! This is my big brother and I'm sure u can tell that we look an awful lot alike. Last night was his bday and it was a pajama themed bday party like whaaa? That's the best theme party. When I got home I literally just crawled into bed like this. 

Nigel has been one of my best friends since college when we met in a journalism class and I was working part time at pacsun and doing promotions for bands for a small amount of money that was like gold to a poor college kid. I gave him some and other class mates stuff from the band a perfect circle (I promoted lots of bands but that week it was them) and we started talking from that point on. 

He was truly a big bro--walking me to my car at night or staying on the phone with me, yelling at me to chose a longer skirt and informing boys that I was his little sister while wagging his finger. He's kept me calm on the highway which I'm Terrified of or would drive bc he knew I was. 

All of this sounds lovely but there was a time our friendship wasn't so lovely. I was constantly getting annoyed with him.  I can't even really remember why nor should I publicize it but I was TOTALLY done with our friendship. Being the ever fiesty girl I am, I told him that I didn't want to be friends and could care less if we ever spoke again in life. Ouch. But even then he was more mature about it than I was and let me know if I wanted to continue our friendship ever, he'd be there. 

Obviously we ended up making up and it was proof that he was a true friend and I made a great decision. He never tires of saying he's always right but he didn't say it that day we made up but he was actually right that our friendship was valuable. And we both never spoke of it again.

Now with my dad gone and no brothers to speak of and not being in a real relationship, it's weird not having any male figures around so I look to my male friends with Nigel obviously being the lead to me. 

I'm lucky to have all of my friends really and this year has been a disaster but I truly appreciate everyone who has been there for me. Even the ones I don't get to see or talk to often like Anna or Hannah or Janel or Linds and Erine --I can't express how much friendships and unconditional love have been instrumental in keeping me sane and I actually get it when people say they are blessed instead of rolling my eyes and being like yeah ok. 

Back to Nigel, he had a big goofy grin and couldn't stop talking about how happy he was with all of his close friends and family and lovely gf in attendance. My wish for him is to have that kind smile everyday. And all the rest of u too.