Saturday, December 29, 2012


There's an old saying that you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink. I'm find that i have many a dehydrated horse around me lately and none of them are drinking. Even if you push the sons of a bitches in when their mouth is open into said water, they're the type of horses that won't swallow (that's what she said). So what are you supposed to do?

I imagine that most of you reading this are adults and you know that you can advise, warn, scream, yell, reason, plead and beg with your friends/family/significant/insignificant other to do or not do something but ultimately, they're the ones who are going to be making the decision and either they'll reap the benefits if things go well or face the consequences.

It's really hard not want to do the Grace from Will and Grace "I told you so" dance when they face the consequences you warned them about. Instead, you're supposed to be supportive and take the higher road*

*Note: The higher road is known as the more mature and noble and humble road but isnt calling it 'higher' pretentious itself?

Anyways, readers, horses, I digress.

There are times when you let people just do whatever b/c they're going to do whatever they want anyways, but at what point do you chime in and say something?

It's hard because for me personally, what credentials do I have-- I'm the polar opposite of perfect and my life certainly isn't the way I imagined so who am I do dish out advice? I know for the most part how to pick and choose my battles but I have several wars ahead and not sure how to handle them. UGH. Why don't we ever listen to those around us? Myself included, in particular to M.F. who is definitely pushing it lately with me but that's a separate blog/rant all together.

Well, this is quite the awkward way to leave off but I'll let you know how things shake out. For now, I'll leave you with song titles that represent the different scenarios I face and you can glean from them whatever you want:

1.) I'm Not Okay - MCR
2.) Wrong Way - Sublime
3.) Face Down - Red Jumpsuit
4.) The Last Song -All American Rejects
5.) Don't Look Back in Anger - Oasis

Friday, December 14, 2012

Tears in Heaven

As a writer, I'm never really short of things to say but the complete devastation and horror of what happened in Connecticut has left me speechless. There are no words I can think of to express my sorrow for the parents, families, the community in general. And I'm sure many people have echoed this sentiment on Facebook and twitter and other forms of social media to the point where it may sound cliche and generic but I don't feel that it is cliche nor generic. It's real. All of our hearts are breaking. The hardest question I'm finding is a simple one word question--why? Why did this have to happen? Why would anyone do something so fucking vicious and flat out evil? We all keep saying after a tragedy that things have got to change. Why hasn't it? Why? I know something's in life are out of our control but dammit there has to be something... We cannot keep living in this kind of world. 

I had dinner tonight with a very dear friend of mine and we talked about this for a bit and she said something that touched my heart. She was commenting on how awful this is and how she wishes that people would get this mad and this upset about all the other stuff that goes on in the world too like the train/bus accident that killed 51 people, mostly children in Egypt. Granted, that may have been an accident versus a fucking psychopath with a gun but those children lost their lives too. I am guilty of not paying as much attention to that story as the one in Connecticut but the bottom line is a tragedy is a tragedy and not a competition. 

It's not just the holiday season that's making me so emotional. It's not even my period which has made me beyond cray cray the past two days. It's the fact that these stories keep happening and so often that the reaction after the initial and lingering horror is, "AGAIN??? ANOTHER ONE??" It's just fucking terrible. 

Please... I dont know who even reads this anymore but if anyone is, please exercise kindness. It's free and it doesn't hurt and it's so damn easy. Be kind to one another even when it seems impossible (i.e. that slow asshole you're stuck driving behind). 

It's the least we can all to do as fellow humans.